Taylor Swift, love songs, and Christmas

So this weekend my friends had a wonderfully amazing xmas party. Small guest list. Big laughs.

It felt great to not be the funny person for the evening. I mean I was in the presence of some real comedians! But the best part of the night was when I got Taylor Swift'd!!! My bro stands up and wants to make a speech and gives this toast:

I would like to thank my sister Shaderi for texting me and telling me about this party. If it wasn't for her I wouldn't even know about it. I mean she made me check my email and I really want to thank her for telling me about this. BUT THAT IS NOT WHAT MY TOAST IS ABOUT!!!!!!!! I really wanna thank...

At this point it doesn't even matter about what else he said because I was given a moment and then it was RIPPED away from me!! Everything inside of me DIED! "i'm gonna let you finish but..." it was kanye and taylor xmas 2010 I promise you!!!!

On to the next part of my weekend LOVE SONGS!!

I have been making my own dj mix/glee mash-up of these 2 songs!!! Enjoy.

Well hope you enjoyed the songs!!! Merry Christmas!!!!!

I would skate but I hate the 80s

It looked like Rainbow bright, legwarmers, and oversized off the shoulder sweatshirts EXPLODED this past saturday/sunday. It was big, loud, and wrong... but it was for a good cause!

I honestly feel like 80s parties (and the Jersey Shore) are the only place where you are allowed to be a fashion DON'T and I don't think its acceptable.

I think its just because I just dont embrace the 80s as an entire decade. I disagree with everything that it stands for. But I think I'm the only person in the WORLD who has a problem with this!!! I must be the only person who does not believe that Lycra and hairspray should be allowed back in the ozone layer.

Yet in spite of my loathe of the entire 80's (Reagan, AIDS, feathered bangs, and stirrup pants) MY DJ had a very successful party to raise money and awareness of what is still going on in Haiti.

Everyone had a blast and I would say that it was all around great! The only reason I didn't skate... I just don't like the 80's. It's nothing personal, I just like the 90's better!!!! I mean I was able to sing a long to maybe 4 or 5 songs all night. I think my parents just skipped that entire decade of music too. (I still don't know who or what Billy Ocean is despite the fact that it was an entire episode of Everybody Hates Chris)

Maybe we can have a 90's party next year!!!!!

I'm just not that into you... today

So this weekend I had a totally ran-dumb movie night where some pretty cool people showed up at my house and we watched a few movies (because what ELSE happens at a movie night?!?)

Well this was the first time that I watched "he's just not that into you" mainly because when it came out I thought to myself "eehhh the book was cute but not cute enough for me to want to see the movie" So I let three years go by before I even think about the book or the movie again. (someone else brought it up actually and I remembered reading the book)

If you want to ask me "WHY IN THE WORLD DID YOU READ THE BOOK?" that is a perfectly valid question that has a perfectly respectable answer:

Because I was bored one day and my roommate left it out on the coffee table in college!! I was 21 and the book had NOTHING to do with the readings for my comparative history:US v. South Africa, slavery vs apartheid class! It was better than watching CTV!

Any of those reasons will do. Trust me!

So anyway we watch this movie and I started to think about how I could have starred in this film... and had several roles!!! Kinda like Eddie Murphy in the Nutty Professor!!

First there was chic who fell in love with every dude that spoke to her... CHECK

Then there was the chic who myspace stalked "researched" ppl and stuff... CHECK

Then there was the chic who's best friend came out and said "I LOVE YOU"... CHECK

Then there was the dude who fell for the girl he was stringing along forever... CHECK

Has the movie taught me anything I didn't know... HECK NO!!!! But the commentary from the guys in the room was very insightful.

Now, I am slightly inclined to believe that because they sat in my living room, offered commentary, laughed, joked, and gave me a hug goodbye... they still aren't that into me... TODAY!!!

tomorrow I may interpret all of that for interest...

I'm Moving on

"Who draws are these? you know I wear a size four-or!!!" Before I type the entire silkk the shocker verse (because I still know all of the words. And because I definitely was in love with him in middle school... even started a group called the No Limit Playettes!!!)
Let's go back to 1998 for a minute...


I realized that it's time for me to make the transition in my life!! I'm moving... AGAIN!!!

But this time I am excited!! I am leaving the Loudness of all things langley park and hitting up the more quiet columbia/elkridge area..

"Shaderi that is much further away from your job isn't it?"

Yes it is but again a lot of things are in transition for me now and I will just keep it at that!!!

I'm excited and I cant wait for you guys to see the new place!!!

Go DJ!! Yeah that's my DJ!!!

So it's pretty much a universal truth that I LOVE MUSIC!!! I love everything that there is to love about music!! So it only makes sense that I would have friends who enjoy music as well (if they didn't then I don't know what else we could talk about... because I definitely can count all of the episodes of Martin I have seen on one hand)

So before you go revoking my black cards... I would like to dedicate this post to "My DJ"

So honestly we met a few months ago at this Parking Spot in DC called Rendevous Lounge in Adams Morgan!! My friend said "this is Shaderi" and his response was "Hopson right... blah blah blah blame twitter" How funny is that? Umm but he was the best DJ in the entire parking spot (please note rendevous is not actually a parking spot but I feel like my living room is bigger than that place)
yeah that's half of the space right there!!!

Anyway so because I like to think of twitter as a catalyst that speeds up the rate at which friendships form, I found out that this DJ is also a cool human being! We go to the same church and everythiing. So anyway how is he now MY DJ?!?

He made the wise mistake of sending me an awesome mixtape of feel good music!!! I honestly love EVERY SONG on here!! It's my definition of shut up and drive music... except at the moment I have nowhere to go!

So yeah MJ DJ now has the task to guess my mood and make a mixtape based on whatever mood that I'm in (not really but wouldn't that be great if someone could do that!!!)

That's my DJ!!

check him out

Cheerleader Smile

Cheerleader Smile

This smile is so fake
only cuz I know its the 4th quarter of this game
and just that I'm in a position of no control
Expected to always be optimistic so I cheer and scream and shout

So I paint on this smile
its so fake
I don't care who wins
I want to get in the game

Action Action Victory
You all join in and cheer with me
but i'm only smiling so
I don't get lipstick on my teeth.

Because
This
Smile
Is
So
Fake

Ms. Solo Dolo pt 2.5

So I mentioned this song in the last post and then remembered that I have an affinity for music that people don't know or don't remember so here is Ms. Solo Dolo's Theme song!!!!

p.s. I definitely sang this song in chorus in like 4th or 5th grade!!!! funtimes.

Ms. Solo Dolo pt 2

So I have been out living the life of a single lady (insert beyonce left hand wave) and I would love to tell you that I have been having nothing but fun... except its only half true!!

Part 2 of the sermon series Solo at my church urged me to read Hebrews 13:5 whenever I felt lonely.
Hebrews 13:5:
Don’t love money; be satisfied with what you have. For God has said, “I will never fail you.
I will never abandon you.”

Duh!!! I can quote that in my sleep but I never thought that I would need a reminder in my life. Especially since I am always out spending time with people. I spent a week in MD and in 3 days I went to 7social gatherings! yes 7 and that doesn't count the pit stops I made for some wonderful red velvet brownies!!! And I have never felt so lonely in my life that weekend.

Let's address why I go out so often... God never said I was gonna marry the mailmen and even if He did I would have to at least go downstairs to meet him! That and I truly enjoy the company of other people. But how can I be surrounded by people and feel lonely? This is a new phenomena to me because I am so used to being the life of the party. I just felt as though nobody desired to be around me. Nobody desired to be with me. Nobody desires Deri (I feel like some Inception level stuff was happening in my brain!!)

My best guy friend said "Desire is not always overt" those words alone have helped me to combat the Inception level untruths that were trying to take root in my brain.

The truth is I know that God is there and I know that He never leaves me, He never fails me, and He will never forsake me. I know that people desire to be around me. And I know that somebody desires me (somewhere out there beneath the pale moon light someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight...) (If you did not instantly start singing the rest of that song from An American Tale then you are a crazy person)

I know all of that to be true but I need to do a better job of believing it...

Solo

The Situation Room

Or my living room as some might actually call it!!!

The situation going on is so deep that I'm not even invited! Here I am thinking I'm grown because I pay bills, I have my own place, I drive my own car (that my dad purchased minor detail I promise) and still I was given the nice look of "child if you don't get out of this room at this very moment then someone will remove you.

So I left which is definitely for the better. Never have I been so stressed and distraught about a situation that directly involved me before.

There really isnt much that i can say. Just know its going down. Basement!

Ms. Solo Dolo pt 1

So my church started a series for single people called "Solo" I was even featured in the video!!

what's funny is that last year a few of my friends decided that my church should do like "single woman of the month" kinda like what Essence Magazine does but like at church!! I mean who doesn't go to church looking for their boo??? Personally whenever a really cute dude walks by I mentally start singing "there goes my baby" (ok I don't sing, nor do I really care but I find myself doing the occasional left-hand check, and for some reason I cant help that)

I digress...

So "Solo" The message was great and the takeaway simply changed my life:

Do what you can to show God how much you appreciate being in the state that you are in.

Clearly I am single and at 21 it was totally easy to appreciate that. At 23 it was getting hard and I started to doubt God (as if He ever really gave me a reason to do so) At the age that I am now I can say that I was getting down-right annoyed. It got so bad I believe I told someone "if God knows that me being single is causing me to doubt Him then why won't he just change that situation?" What kind of spiritual milk was I sippin on?!? I mean it was getting awful.

The takeaway from the message though helped me put a lot of things in perspective. I see now that my way of thinking was completely ummm silly! And God doesn't love me any less for being that silly for that long!

So this week I stayed away from "bait" or attractive men. It was challenging but I learned a lot about myself. It also helped me see who and what I appreciate and why! The trick was showing God the same type of appreciation that I show others (who didn't die on the cross for my sins Romans 5:8 style) If it seemed like I wasn't speaking to you its not because I didn't love you but because I value my relationship with God a whole lot more!!!


~Ms. Solo Dolo~

I got a feeling

I generally don't discuss my feelings with anybody! I work in observable facts. I guess thats the scientist in me always coming to the light. So I'm working on feeling more... expect a poem about that tomorrow